In my 19 years of life I have on more than one occasion been covered head to toe in dirt. When I was younger I hated wearing shoes and so all of my everyday activities involved my feet getting covered in mud or grass stains. I was that kid that turned my bath water brown. On many other occasions my family had taken multiple camping trips where showering was unlikely and so smelling bad was an everyday occurrence. As I mentioned before the feeling of being dirty was not a new sensation to me. However, have you ever felt so confident in something and then realized that you were so wrong about it? This is a feeling that has already occurred more than once while being out on this trip.
Ezekiel 36:25 speaks this, I will sprinkle clean water on you and you shall be clean from all your uncleanness and from all your idols I will cleanse you.
Through many speaking’s done at training camp I have been reminded that my whole being is unclean. Struggles of forgiving others, my heart weighing heavy with shame, humility, and guilt consume me. The ability to feel clean from these thoughts fell so distant to me. A God so powerful doesn’t need to cleanse me because how unworthy am I, a dirty sinner. But remember that question I asked before, have you ever felt so confident in something and realized you were so wrong about it? Being on this trip new light has been shed on these feelings of being unclean. During training camp we showered with a bucket full of cold water, it was 90 degrees and I was sweating while trying to wash myself. I felt as if being clean was impossible. But the truth of it is, I have never been so thankful for a cold shower.
My eyes have opened and seen the truth, I am a child of God, worthy of cleanse. The dirt I let consume me is gone in the eyes of God.
John 15:3 says, Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you.
We are forgiven for the past and already forgiven for the future. Our bodies have been clean by the blood shed on the cross. So I leave with this,
Jeremiah 31:25 For I will satisfy the weary soul and every languishing soul I will replenish.
Trip Update:
God is so good everyone, the feelings I have been consumed with are being worked through here in Costa Rica. Travels were all safe and the culture here is so rich and inviting. We currently are doing different types of ministry everyday, this may look like working at a nursing home, helping with teens at risk, or teach children English. These are just a few of the many activities my team participates here in this beautiful country. I pray for safety over everyone back home, I miss everyone very much. God bless and keep a look out for my next post! Hasta Luego!
