First I want to say I am not a blogger and I am really bad at collecting my thoughts so forgive me for the ramble. I just want to share a few of the ways the Lord has been teaching me to trust him throughout these few weeks. So here we go!
The reason I signed up for this trip to Guatemala was because i felt the Lord calling me to step out of my comfort zone and into a life of full trust in Him. I can say that since coming here i have not been comfortable. The living quarters are much different than anything i have ever experienced in America. i take bucket showers once or twice a week and sleep on the floor. But nothing compares to how humbling it is to live this way. I have been given a new and bigger perspective outside of the comfortable life in America and I am so thankful for that. I know that going back to America this new perspective will impact my way of life forever.
The first few days here my team experienced spiritual warfare in a very visible way and i wont lie i was filled with fear for those first few days. Then one night we gathered together for worship and by the end the fear was lifted off of my chest as the Lord was teaching me to trust. Trusting the Lord has never been my strong suit. I have always been anxious and a worrier and a control freak but my trust had grown so clearly through these past two weeks here.
One person on my team pointed out 2 Timothy 1 to me in those first few days and it has honestly helped me so much so here are a few verses from that chapter that really have stuck in my brain these past two weeks.
“For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self discipline.” – 2 Tim 1:7
“I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him until that day.” – 2 Tim 1:12
Being able to entrust the Lord with my heart is a constant choice and has been something I have been leaning into on this trip. I am realizing how much goodness comes out of entrusting the Lord with my everything.