Life in Thailand is great! Funny Snapchat stories, cute instagram pictures, and a camera in the palm of my hand at all times. Sounds great right? Well it was until God took it away from me.
A couple days ago I lost all that when a tiny purple dot spread all the way across my phone screen. Since I can’t see the screen I can’t look at snapchat, post on instagram, or take pictures whenever I want! At first I was furious! The rest of my team was having the time of there life on there phones and I had to carry around my laptop just to message a few people and check Facebook. I talked to my parents and told them what happened and they immediatly tried to help me by mailing me a phone. (Thanks guys! You’re the best!) Then we realized it may not get here before I leave, it may get broken during the shipment, ect. Still wanting a phone, I came across an electronics store. First let me say, everything in Thailand is cheap! I found a Samsung Galaxy for about 2,500 baht. (around $70) It was not anything fancy but it was something I could hook to wifi and still use Snapchat, Instagram, and have a camera. I did not buy it.
I have been working on building my relationship with God and trusting Him with my entire life. I want a father/daughter relationship with God! Not a relationship where he is a higher power or being and I am His little robot. If my Earthly Father takes my phone away from me wouldn’t it be disobedient to go out and buy another one? God must be trying to teach me a lesson. So this is where I TRUST him.
The day my phone broke I was in much need of some “God and Taylor time.” I opened my Bible to random pages and read whatever story started on that page. 2 out of the 3 stories I read were about God condeming people for having other idols and gods!!!!! I have been trying to figure out where my worth comes from or if I was even worthy enough. In Jeremiah God tells Judah they were worthless because the idols they worshiped were worthless. Kinda like how you are what you eat! Had my phone become an idol? The last chapter I read was in Mark where Jesus told the 12 diciples to go out 2 by 2 and spread his name and make followers of Christ. So, I need to let go of my phone and focus on making followers of Christ!
Am I completly disconnected from the world? No. But this is a big change for me, and I will TRUST God though it!
