So here lately, I’ve been waking up around 5:30 a.m with some of my teammates to start our day with a Bible study. Honestly, I hate getting up out of bed at 5:30, but I love starting my day with Jesus before anything else.
We have been reading the book of Matthew, and we’d really like to finish the New Testament by the time our trip ends.
The lord has been reminding me of how big He is. From feeding 5,000 to letting Peter walk on water, He was always faithful.
I’ve been learning so much since I started reading Matthew, it’s like the Lord opens my eyes to so many different things each time. This time He’s been teaching me through the sunrise.
I used to struggle so badly with self confidence and self worth. I was always comparing myself to someone else, and putting myself down. I didn’t think I was good enough. I honestly have been struggling with this probably since junior high. It wasn’t until a few days ago the Lord brought me into his freedom when it came to this.
I remember looking up into the sky during the sunrise and completely in awe of how beautiful his creations are. I then heard a gentle whisper telling me He made me beautiful too. And it broke me.
People are always so quick to tell someone who struggles with self confidence/self worth of how pretty they are, how they are worth it, and so on. It actually begins to lose the true meaning to that person. I heard that so many times in my life it lost all meaning to me. I was like okay they’re just saying that because they want to be nice, not because they generally think that.
It all changed for me when I heard the Lord tell me I am beautiful, and I am worth it.
There’s a quote I see quite often and it says:
“how cool is it the same God who created the mountains looked at the world and thought it needed one of you?”
That hit me like a freight train. The God of the universe, the king of kings, literally thought of me when making the world, and yet I still didn’t feel good enough? That right there should have taken away any self consciousness that was inside me.
The verse Psalms 139:14 means so much more to me now. Knowing God loves me just the way I am, and knowing He calls me his daughter is such a beautiful reminder to me. That is where I need to find my worth.
I am worthy.
I am good enough.
I am loved.
Now everytime I see the sunrise, the Lord reminds me of this. I love watching the sunrise and the sunset. It’s so peaceful to watch at the end of a long day. I love hearing that sweet, gentle whisper saying he calls me his own.
God sent his grestest offering to die on a cross for me. How in the world did I ever feel bad about myself? I am so thankful the Lord reminded me He loves me for me.
Sunrises are now my forever reminder of whose I am.
