We’ve been in Zambia for about 3 1/2 weeks now and everyone has been adjusting really well. I’m not a huge blogger, but I felt led to write about a certain experience.
Today (February 18th) was a pretty big day for most of us. It was the day we went bung
ee jumping off the Victoria falls bridge. We had all been anticipating this day for weeks. And by we, I mean everyone but me. I was terrified ever since I heard we were going to do it, but I tried to hide my fear from everyone else. I’m not a huge adrenaline junky, so I wasn’t quite fond of the idea. I really just wanted to do it so I could say I jumped off a bridge next to the worlds largest waterfall. My biggest fear is heights, so as the day started approaching, the more my anxiety shot up. I had seriously been praying for days for The Lord to give me peace about the whole situation because I was so scared. And then the moment came…
I was strapping in my harness and going through the techniques I needed to learn before I was ready to jump. My adrenaline was pumping and I was freaking out over the thought of jumping off this bridge in just a few minutes. But then I remembered my life verse: Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” I actually plan on getting this tattooed on me when I get back. I started thinking about my tattoo and if I even really trusted in The Lord with all my life and if I was ready to mark my body for the rest of my life with something I probably wasn’t even doing. It was so easy for me to say it, but was I really living it? In that moment, I realized the enemy had been attacking me for all those weeks I had been dreading the bungee jumping. It wasn’t just about the bungee jumping, but all sorts of other things. Wether it was ministry or adjusting to the people around me, I was being attacked. He was filling my head with all these fears and unnecessary thoughts about things that were out of my control. At that moment, the moment I was about to go head first off a bridge, peace took over my body. I felt no more fear. I knew my life was in the hands of the maker and I could seriously trust him with my life.
The moment I jumped off that ledge, I felt free. I felt free of the enemy and free of the things trying to hold me back. I put just as much trust in that bungee cord as I did in The Lord to protect me. It was an exhilarating moment in so many ways and I’d do it again in a heartbeat.
– Mary Hamilton
