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Halfway

Today is October 20, 2018 and I began acknowledging that wow I have past the halfway mark on this adventure. Have I been doing what the Lord has been telling me? Have I grown more? What can I work on more in my faith? As I was working on my reading and my homework there parts where I question my own believes. I think I was just overthinking too much. I struggle so hard with being very confident in being Bold in my faith. Well that was before I came here to Nepal. Meeting everyone here and having them by my side helps me so much. They give me their strengths and I learn with them and being bold with them. We are all working together to love the people from here. Here is my family’s names Hannah B, Hannah N, Pele, Maddy, James, Sean, Katlin, Mikala, Savanna, Lauren, Faith, Savanna, Gabby and my fearless leaders Julia and Kirsten. Dreaming about Heaven with them and think about how after this adventure some of us won’t be able to meet each other on earth but in Heaven we will all see each other there. They are my family. They are my Home. There’s no place I would rather be than with them on this roof. God is so good. The fact that he hand-picked us for this work. We make meals together and worship together. We all love each other. Each one of them brings a different gift and talent to the table. God uses all of our talents to make this team work so well. When I thought about how I’ve grown throughout these weeks I’ve been bold in my faith. It slow but it still something. When I talk to God about what’s the next step to this journey? My homework assignment was to fast and to find more about what fasting can do for our Christian Spirit. There more to it than just Fasting from food. There’s more than just on a crash diet. In my environment I didn’t think it was safe to go without food or water, but I did a social media fast. I didn’t talk to my best friends and I just took a little break from everything. My parents were in a mess and my friends were all texting me more. I spent time talking to the Lord. I would look up to the mountains and just spend hours there looking at God’s beauty. I listen carefully, and I heard God’s voice telling me to let go of everything. That I can’t keep everything inside me. I’m only hurting myself by keep all this inside me. So, I cried and cried till I felt no more sadness. I felt that I gave God everything. I thought this feels good. Even though I didn’t want to open up about this heartache I told some of the people hear about what I was going through and they would always repeat (in different words) have you brought it to the Lord? What has he been telling you? That’s when I decided to make a small fast to only focus on those emotions. Thank you to the kind words they gave me and for them praying for me. I am more at peace with myself and with God. I’m still working on it but this helped a little.

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